Sticking Around AoS Post Season 7 Epilogue


This is a fan fiction of Agents of Shield, imagining how Coulson and May develop their friendship/relationship after the events of Season 7, considering their new superpowers/abilities and Coulson being an advanced chronicom LMD of himself. From interviews of the cast, Coulson is less of an LMD and closer to a character like Enoch. Coulson can feel like a human would, which is why he’s so confused when he’s turned on. He feels normal, but then data/programming in his head tells him he’s not. It’s really fun season 7 explored his existence and whether or not he has a soul. I totally think he has one, and I consider him Coulson 2.0.

Professor May strolled into her classroom, filled with young potential Agents of Shield. Most were just out of high school and there was one who was even a time traveler. On her first day, she grappled with what the students should call her. So she decided on just May or Professor. Being young adults, many of the students inquired if there was a Mr. May or any sort of person attached to May, but after seeing the sadness in her eyes, the students stopped asking. Only Flint knew of one man who could still be in her life and he wasn’t even really a man. 

May had been very happy to see Coulson in their reunion meeting, even if it wasn’t in-person. They had kept in touch over the past year, May even subscribing to Coulson’s YouTube Travel vlog. She still couldn’t believe how much of a tech geek he was now.

The two friends had given each other space, because she needed to figure out who she was outside of a field agent. She also knew he was grappling with his existence. And, with her newfound abilities she also had to understand many new emotions, ones she had previously just buried deep into her heart. But she was more happy than she realized that he decided to stick around. 

So during the reunion, she expressed that she would like to see him. You know, for professional reasons. That’s it. That had been several weeks ago, so she was surprised he hadn’t given her much more than a check-in text since then. All he asked today was if she had classes and what time they might be over. Maybe he would give her a call after work.

“So May, what are your plans for after class?” Flint asked as the bell rang on the last class. Flint had a smirk on his face and she could sense a mischievous aura coming off him.

May figured he had some girl he wanted to go on a date with, so she replied “Is this why you cleaned the kitchen this morning? I’m going straight home to make myself dinner. I’m famished. Why don’t you take your lady friend out to eat? Here’s some money.” Flint took the bills and stuffed them in his pocket. His smirk changed to a huge grin. 

“Thanks May. Now, why don’t we want to the parking lot together, my friend is waiting there to pick me up.” May grabbed the rest of her things and walked out with Flint. He must really like this girl, his excitement level was at max and that’s saying something for Flint.

As May approached the parking lot, she saw a very familiar car with a very familiar person standing next to it. “Coulson.” As May looked over to Flint, she realized he wasn’t excited for a date, he was excited for May and Coulson. Obviously Coulson let him in on some plan. “See ya May! Thanks for the cash! I’ll be staying at Yo-yo’s tonight. I have keys to her house.” He winked and took his hoverboard out of his bag.

May laughed, Flint was such a cool kid. She was happy he was taken from the future back to them. Even though it was through a crazy circumstance. Some things are just meant to be. 

“Now that’s a sound for sore ears. I think I can count on one hand how many times you’ve laughed with so much joy.” Coulson grinned, holding his hand out to May.

“I laugh a lot more now, you know. Flint helps with that, and being around a bunch of rowdy first years. So, assuming we are going to my place?” May couldn’t help but be filled with happiness. She really did love his smile.

“Assuming Flint did what I asked and cleaned the kitchen, yes. Sorry it took me a few weeks to come visit. I had some to get some supplies.” Coulson pointed to Lola, which had a case of Haig, green tea, and what looked like fixings to make a steak dinner.

May shook her head, “You really are pulling out all the stops. I look forward to figure out what’s going on in your head. Though I do seem to be getting a little reading off you.” May cocked her head. Before she couldn’t feel him at all, because well, he was an LMD. Granted he was a very advanced LMD with chronicom hardware, so the normal LMD rules didn’t apply to him. But they were able to give the Chronicoms empathy, so what’s to say that Coulson didn’t find a way to radiate emotions? Maybe his year of soul searching was literal.

May and Coulson got to her house and she noticed it was even cleaner than this morning. Flint must have come home at lunch to tidy up more. She’d have to remember to thank him profusely. Coulson looked around, saw many momentos hung up, photos of the team, and even one of her and Coulson. 

“New May I see. The May I once knew would never be this nostalgic.” Coulson smiled. He was happy to see her and started taking out the ingredients for dinner. May helped him get out pans and pots for dinner. “Well, Flint said we needed some stuff for the walls, and decided to put some of the team up. I do miss all of them.”

Coulson had a bit of sadness in his eyes, “I do too. I wish we could all be together again. But hey, I got to see Fitz-Simmons and their little monkey on my travels. We should really go out there sometime, Alya is a dream.” 

“I still can’t believe the team is having kids now. They were just kids when we started.” May looked away, reminiscing on those early days. Those days she was so closed off, before she could express her true feelings. She distinctly remembered warning Coulson about bringing 3 non-combat ready kids on the bus, but his eternal optimism would not be snuffed. And how many times had those “kids” saved the team, let alone the whole world. It was Coulson’s search for his own team, companions that lead to life long friends. 

Coulson and May chatted on the surface as they finished making dinner. It was a delicious steak dinner, with cups of green tea which quickly turned to glasses of Haig. “So Coulson can you get drunk?” 

Coulson laughed, “technically yes, my programming will do it. But it takes a lot more than it used to.” 

“Yeah you were a lightweight. That was always fun.” May remembered one of their first missions together, where the two were at a bar doing recon. He kept ordering more shots of scotch to sell the act, but it made for a slightly tipsy Agent Coulson. He almost botched the mission, but made up for it by taking down their target. May giggled at the memory.

“True, but it did make for some interesting missions. I miss the old days. But then again, I didn’t have this amazing family I have now. And these cool superpowers.” Coulson replied, giving May a smile.

  Silence filled the air, and the pair realized they needed to have a serious talk about their future. If they had a future. “So Phil, what made you decide to stick around?”

Coulson realized it was time to tell May how he truly felt. Because in the past he had been terrible at doing that. But now they had a chance. He had a chance. “A lot of reasons. One is I hate being alone. Traveling the world was fun, but I always felt a bit of a emptiness as I did it. So I visited Jemma and Fitz for awhile. Jemma has basically convinced me that I do have a soul, so there’s that.”

May gave him a look, “Of course you have a soul. And the fact that I’m getting some small readings off you prove that.”

“After being with them, seeing Alya, I realized that I would rather live and lose then just turn off and not having loved at all. I have gotten so many new chances at life. I decided I would rather be around, see people get married, have kids. I won’t age. But I will get to see life. And love.” Coulson put his hand on May’s hand.

“Phil, I…” May wasn’t sure what to say. She loved Coulson. This was Coulson, but not Coulson. She had mourned Coulson, too many times. But there was another chance sitting right in front of her. If being an empath taught her anything, is that closing herself off was not the answer. Time to embrace change, and new life.

“I’ll give you time if you need it. But Melinda May, I love you. I’ve always loved you. We were chasing after so many things for so long. And finally when we got the chance to be together it only lasted weeks. Well this way we can get some years. If…you’ll have me” Coulson said shakily, he had practiced this speech for months. He was so thankful he got it out instead of his usual freezing up.

May looked him in the eye. And she felt him. Really felt him. It started as a trickle and was now a waterfall. It is HIM! “You know, when you were gone, I told Yo-yo that I learned that life is not meant to be lived alone. And that is true. I have Flint and my students, but I don’t have a companion, a soulmate. I loved the man Phil Coulson, and I think I can love this new Phil Coulson. You.” The two gave each other the grandest smiles, and toasted to a new start. 

Coulson’s phone dinged and he read the message, “Coulson…phase 2 a go? -Daisy” 

May said to Coulson, “Daisy? Are they back home? I had heard their mission was finishing up and they had jumped back. Do you need to call her?”

Coulson grinned, “Naw, told her I’d call her later. Now, I do have one more gift.”

Daisy’s phone dinged back, “Phase 2 initiated” and an audio feed came in. Daisy pointed to her comrades, “Alright everyone, get ready for phase 2!”

Flint, Daisy, and Yo-Yo were hidden in Flint’s room, after climbing in through the window. 

Yo-yo put her comm into her ear, “So, have they said anything yet?” 

“Naw, I think Coulson is getting out the package. But be ready.” Daisy’s smile couldn’t be contained. She had actually touched down a few days before, and had to get a few things ready for this mission with the help of Kora and Sousa. “I just hope Coulson delivers. You know how…nervous he can get when expressing his feelings.”

“Yeah, remember when May would just glare at him? Who knows how she’ll react now?” Flint responded, remembering back when May wasn’t an empath.

“Shhhhh, I think he’s about to…”


“So, there is one more reason I came over. I have a gift for you. So here’s hoping you’ll like it.” Coulson’s voice got a little high pitched and shaky. May became nervous herself, able to finally feel Coulson.

Phil Coulson got down on one knee. “I wish I had done this years ago. Back when…well when we were different people. But in one sense, I’m not sure those two people would have done this. So here we go. Melinda, I have watched you become a most beautiful, hardcore, selfless, and amazing woman over the years. You age like fine wine, become more rich and full as time goes by. And for how many years you have left, I want to spend them with you. Will you marry me?”

May was stunned. She sat there, unable to move, unable to speak. In the back of her mind she was thinking, “a robot is proposing to me.” But then when she truly thought about it, and felt his sincerity, she knew it was Coulson. Was it the actual man? Maybe not, but it was his soul, his true character. 

“Yes. 100% yes. I’m not sure how it’s all going to work out. Or if it’s even legal, but I will marry you.” May got down on one knew as well, and drew in Coulson with a kiss. 

“Well, you kiss like Coulson.”

Before Coulson could respond with another kiss, a noise came from Flint’s room, “Alright you two, let’s get this party started before the two of you throw your own party” Daisy, Flint, and Yo-Yo strolled out of Flint’s bedroom, clapping and opening a bottle of champagne.

On the nearby wall, a video projection of Mack, Fitz and Simmons, and Kora and Sousa came on, all of them with a glass of champagne ready to go.

Daisy began the toast, “In honor of the Mom and Dad of our team. Who have gone through several deaths, time, fear dimensions, alien abductions, and new bodies and abilities, let this be the day that their love is solidified.”

May laughed, a glorious, heartfelt laugh that echoed through the entire house. “How did you know I was going to say yes?”

Coulson wrapped her in a hug, “I just knew.” May looked down at her ring, sculpted perfectly for her finger. A beautiful red gem sat on top of an unknown metal, with swirls all around it. 

“Let me guess, this ring is forged from Daisy, Flint, and Kora. It’s beautiful, you guys.” She pointed to the screens and showed everyone the one of a kind ring.

“Okay okay, one question. How in the world do we get married with Coulson being well, not human?” May wondered how they would explain this to a marriage licensing place.

Fitz perked up from the screen, “We thought of that, and I know several planets that will perform the ceremony and it will be perfectly legal. Coulson made me rule out Kitson though, that’s not exactly where you’d one to go. Maybe on a honeymoon…depending on your likes.” Fitz winked, and looked over at Simmons who just shook her head. 

Coulson responded, “Wedding planning later. Time to celebrate!” Everyone smiled, and while Mack and a few of the others had to leave for important meetings, Flint, Yo-yo and Daisy stuck around. Simmons stayed on the video feed while Fitz put Alya to bed.

Daisy gave May a huge hug. “You don’t know how long Coulson has been planning this. While he did grapple with his existence for a time, the biggest thing he grappled with was how to win your heart again.” 

May smirked, setting down her glass of champagne, “Honestly, I didn’t even know my heart could love again. But I began to realize that if Simmons can go after a second Fitz, well I can love a 2nd Coulson. I guess our team should be known as Agents of Second Chances.”

“or Third, or Fourth. Coulson replied, giving May another kiss, then downing his glass of champagne. 

After a few hours, the team realized they should give May and Coulson some alone time, to celebrate in their own way, “Hey, this has been super fun, but Flint has a 7 am class tomorrow and I have a mission brief with the Director, so we better get out of your hair.” Daisy responded, giving a not so subtle wink to May and Coulson.

“But hey, let’s go out to lunch tomorrow and start with some wedding planning!”

May wrapped her arm around Coulson, “Yeah, make that a late lunch.” 

Daisy gave her and Coulson a look, “This really is a new May. Wow. Well, I won’t keep you guys waiting. See you tomorrow you two love birds!” With that, the video chat ended, and the three amigos sauntered out the front door.

“How long did it take you to plan this, Coulson?” May wondered as she saw the team leave the house. 

“I’ve been planning it most of the year, but wanted to wait until I got the invitation from you to hang out again. And I was really hoping you’d say yes…otherwise it would’ve have been quite embarrassing. But everyone believed you’d say yes, so I was hoping,” Coulson poured another glass of champagne and lead May to the couch. “Well, should we get on to celebrating more then?”

“I’d thought you never ask.”

Agents of Shield and Resilience of Relationships

*This will have spoilers up to Season 5 of Agents of Shield*

I just finished Season 5 of Agents of Shield and the show has become one of my favorite TV shows ever. It helps that I’m a huge Whedon fan, I used to watch Buffy, Angel, and Firefly in college with friends. I also love Marvel and spy stuff (though not as much as Star Wars) and I appreciate the fact that Agents of Shield is at its heart, a tribute to all sci-fi, superhero, spy, and space opera themes everywhere.

But more than the theme, Agents of Shield does something that is rare in TV these days. Developing very deep and complex characters, as well as their relationships (romantic/friendship/work) while having a sometimes silly and obviously very unrealistic plotlines.

I think that’s the point of the show. It never takes the plot seriously, sometimes even makes fun of itself, but the character reactions to the plot, betrayals, abandonment, death, injury, love triangles, humor make it an amazing show.

Let’s first talk about my favorite two characters, Daisy (Skye) and Coulson. The two start out with a very rocky relationship, with him stealing her away from Rising Tide and making her into a very reluctant ally. At first their relationship was more one of a principal and troubled student, with her getting herself in trouble and him trying to get her back. Then became trust, as the two of them realized they were more alike than they realized, when they had the alien DNA going through their veins. That trust began to build as Coulson admitted to her his alien writings and how he may be going crazy. 

Later on, Daisy finds her parents, and all of the sudden, she didn’t feel like she needed Coulson as a surrogate father figure anymore. Or so she thought! Her parents ended up being INSANE, her mom tries to kill her, all the while, Coulson never gives up on her. And welcomes her back (even when she couldn’t herself deal with the guilt) of rejecting SHIELD and becoming Hives’ slave. 

Fast forward to Season 4 and 5, and Daisy finds herself finally realizing she’s not only a part of SHIELD, but one of the strongest and capable agents on the team. She accepts Coulson back as her Director, friend, and father. But Coulson holds back that he’s dying and is wanting Daisy to become the new director, even though she wasn’t quite ready. In the end of Season 5, Coulson realizes he put too much on her. Daisy also would stop at nothing to save Coulson’s life, even at risk of the entire world.

But Coulson ultimately made the decision, the people he loves vs saving the entire world. It wasn’t easy, but he decided to not take the life saving serum and instead give it to Daisy to save both her and the world from Talbot. As Coulson goes to finish out his last days with May (more on that in a moment), he gives Daisy a big hug, says he’s proud of her, just like any great dad would do. Then they both tell each other they love each other.

I love this because it shows a different type of relationship rarely seen in TV. It shows of a man who essentially adopts this ragtag hacker and helps find her way in a complex world. There’s nothing at all romantic about their relationship, it’s always sort of a mentor/student role that eventually turns into a father/daughter role. It shows that even when she rejects him for a time, that he never stops giving her everything, including sacrificing himself so that she can save the world. It shows that just because you love someone doesn’t mean it’s easy, and you’ll argue and have to agree to disagree ALOT. The energy on screen show that the actors do care for each other in person, and that it’s not all contrived. Friendships both on and off screen can drive the narrative to not only be believable but inspirational. 

Now the other relationship that I love in Agents of Shield is of May and Coulson. Early on in Season 1, I called the ship. But that ship didn’t sail until end of Season 5! It was a long simmer and one very expertly done. I think May and Coulson always had a love and respect for each other, but May became off-limits when she married Andrew and then become disconnected after Bahrain. Also the whole Grant/May fling probably didn’t help their chances either. Coulson and May are the parents of the SHIELD team, and often their differences of opinion come to a head. She often sees him as reckless, but he also sees her as reckless too, throwing herself into basically any fight. 

It seemed like in Season 3 and 4 that nothing would come of their relationship, especially with the whole Robot May situation. Still one of my favorite lines, “Robot May was much more supportive.” Add that to the fact that Coulson was dying in Season 5 (which apparently was supposed to be the last season, but with two more seasons I’m betting Coulson doesn’t actually die) but we’ll see as I start Season 6!

I love how he was trying to protect her from another heartache of losing someone she loves, but it’s sort of the “it’s better to have loved than to never love at all” mantra. Eventually the two, while under gunfire and arguing admit they love each other. Although Coulson never quite says the words, he does pull her close and make out while shielding them from gunfire, so if that doesn’t say love than I don’t what is. Also, Daisy’s reaction to them kissing was PRICELESS, totally the face if you walked in on your parents making out as a kid. 

But for May and Coulson, it was never about passion, really, but a longstanding and strong relationship forged out of life’s biggest highs and lowest lows. They often didn’t need words, just a hand on a shoulder there and a knowing nod here. Their relationship really reminded me of Kanan and Hera in Star Wars Rebels. Never quite time to further the romantic side of the relationship, but all of the other parts were there. 

Since I haven’t seen season 6 and 7, I don’t know if any more happens with their relationship, but I’m really happy with how the writers and directors did it. Sometimes the best on-screen relationships are the ones that just exist. They don’t have to have a name even, just that it’s there.

Now I know I should talk about Fitz-Simmons, and their relationship is one complex thing after another. It’s cool they got married in the show, and their loyalty to each other rarely wanes, even when one (Fitz) gets a dual personality. I loved it best when they were the awkward nerdy scientists together, but I guess that can’t happen for 7 seasons. Though in reality, my husband and I have been awkward nerdy people together for 12 years now, and maybe that doesn’t make for great TV, but makes for great reality.

Moving on, Mack and Elena (Yo-Yo’s) story arcs are quite cool, and they’ve definitely become some of my favorite characters in the show. I love that Mack is presented as a professing Christian and not your typical TV show one. He is firm with his convictions, but does it in a way that’s respectful to all. Sometimes the other characters get frustrated with his lifestyle, but ultimately at the end of Season 5, they realize he’s the only one with firm moral grounding. The only one who could keep SHIELD’s mission to protect people remain the core. So I loved that the show really respects a Christian man and actually realize he’s the only one that stays firm and doesn’t react with his emotions, even when things are incredibly tough.

That brings me to Yo-Yo who always has a tendency toward revenge and the ends justify the means. She makes incredibly tough decisions in the show that ostracized her, but in the end, was able to help save the world and break the time loop with her warnings. I think Mack and her are a good balance to each other, and their relationship is so rocky at times, but that they come together at the end of Season 5, stronger than ever.

There are many other relationships in the show, but these are some of my favorites. Agents of SHIELD shows what a team of people can do, when lead by people who have strong moral convictions to save and protect people. The team and its leaders are never perfect, they fight, they get immature at times, but in the end, they are a team forged by the bonds of extreme hardship. 

In today’s world, most of our interactions are now only on a screen. Many are not part of any sort of team anymore, whether it’s a sports team, work team, ministry team, or service team. 

Even myself, not having active, in-person service and ministry for 6 months has left me filled with such emptiness.  Probably why I was binge watching Agents of SHIELD, I was so attracted to watching a show with such a strong team of people, faults and all.

But now I get to be part of my AWANA ministry team again, and I find myself almost comparing us to the SHIELD team. It’s silly, for sure, but I guess it shows how much I relate to the show. Sure, there isn’t time travel or aliens or the Matrix, but the real life hardships are there. All of us have gone through incredibly hard and impossible times in the past 5 years I’ve known all of them. A lifetime of hardships.

But that’s what makes us stronger. Forges us into a team. In a time I was feeling so burnt out and not wanting to continue, now I’m on fire more than ever. And being part of a team, a team that cares for each other deeply, and has a common goal, has made me so happy. While Agents of SHIELD is just a show, I get to experience a real team, with real leaders who would sacrifice everything to save the one lost sheep.

What are you invested in?

When I think of the word investment, I immediately think of finances and the stock market. However, there is another definition that is used commonly in church culture. Basically the idea of being involved in many different areas. Investing your time, mental energy, faith, and physical self into activities, people, or events.

I recently said the other day I was feeling burnt out, and I tried to think of why I’ve been feeling that way lately. Then I realized, I’ve invested myself in many things and people. I do have downtime, especially with the kid in school full time. I do have a good amount of time for myself.

That being said, I often use that time investing in the people around me. If I’m at the coffee shop, I’m chatting it up with the baristas and possibly the other customers. If I’m at the rock gym, I’m not just climbing but talking and building friendships with not only the employees but with the members. When I’m at church, I’m investing in my church family and my family as well. When I’m at AWANA, I’m investing in the kids and leaders.

My husband and I have spread ourselves pretty thin this year in terms of investment. We love spending time with people and getting to know them. Between coworkers, friends, family, school, our kid’s friends, it all adds up. On any given week, I’m coordinating with probably over 50 people on various tasks. Whether it’s my several climbing groups, AWANA, my small group, game group, two D&D groups, friends, and family, sometimes I get even where I’m triple booked in one day.

This isn’t a post on me being popular or doing too much. But it’s showing how even though I’m a stay at home mom with a good chunk of free time, I’m also investing myself in many different directions. Just because I spend an hour at the coffee shop every few days, doesn’t mean I’m not currently investing in the people and place there. I am. I’m an extrovert, and I love building friendships and relationships with people.

Community is what drives me. As a Christian, it’s all about relationships for me. And I don’t have an agenda. I don’t become your friend just to invite you to church. I become your friend because I care about you and I love sharing this passion with you. Whether it’s coffee or climbing or math or board games. And if I’m able to enourage and be a light to people along the way, that’s my ultimate goal.

And no, I am far from being perfect. I still get mad when I don’t send a league route. I still get annoyed if I don’t win that board game. I’m not a perfect representation of Christ. I still make mistakes. I say dumb things and I get very emotional. But as my pastor says, we are all in process. I invest in all these people and events and places because I want to share my life with so many people. I don’t want to just live in the church bubble. I want to be friends with people of all walks of life, because that’s how we grow. And I think hearing where people are and where they come from is so interesting to me.

So what’s the point of all of this? I guess it’s saying that just because someone appears to have lots of free time, doesn’t mean that their emotional, spiritual, and physical energy doesn’t get sapped from time to time. I guess it means we should all have grace and not judge people’s schedules. Everyone does life differently. Some people are homebodies and want as much home time as possible. Others love to be out and about and doing as many things as possible.

I’m a bit of a mix. I guess with my son in school full time I thought I would have more time. I do have more time, but I have less emotional time. We are involved in a lot, and though I’m constantly saying no to certain events or commitments, I also want to be open and available for a lot of people. I’ll get my break soon. Once summer hits, a lot of the things I’m involved in take a break. I won’t have recess duty or school events or Awana or everyday 3 pm pick up. Gotta keep rolling until the end of the school year.

All in all, what it comes down to, is I love people, I love spending time with people, and I wouldn’t trade my life for the world. I’m so blessed that I get to interact and be friends with so many different people.

As Iron Sharpens Iron, so we must sharpen each other.